Life Goes On (Erics POV)

Okay. I had a request or two... To write Eric's POV during Life Goes On. So, here it is. I promise I'm still working on ASC. It should be posted tonight or tomorrow. In the mean time, enjoy!

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I could feel Sookie standing in the doorway staring at me. For once she wasn't my sole focus. My eyes were captivated by the beautiful little girl in my arms. Her tiny hand was wrapped around my thumb. She had my eyes but looked like her mother. Never had I ever thought that I would be a father. Yet here was our miracle baby. The road to my current bliss was paved not with good intentions, but sheer stupidity. On both my part and Sookies. Sometimes it seems like it was just yesterday.

2 years ago

" I don't love you." Her words cut into me. I hadn't expected them to hurt so badly. For 1000 years I managed to keep myself from loving anyone. Now I was paying for it in spades. The only woman I had ever loved was pushing me away.

"I can't love you. I just can't. Please leave." I wanted to tell her how wrong she was. I wanted to tell her how easy it would be to love me. Instead I left. I walked out of her house and out of her life.

I walked away from Sookie, my heart, my love. I knew she loved me, I could feel it through the bond. But she didn't want to be with me. And maybe that was a good thing. She would be safer without me in her life.

I hung in the shadows and watched her. She pushed moving boxes out of the way as she made her way to the shower. I refused to show weakness, I refused to let one damn tear fall. I loved her and she was running. Just like she always did. Why was I surprised now?

I could hear her muffled sobs from the shower. At that point I would have met the sun if it meant that I could rid myself of this damn bond and my love for her. It caused me only pain. Pain that I certainly did not need.

I watched the house until she finished her shower and went to bed. I hovered in by the window for a while. Watching her cry herself to sleep. If the foolish woman would just admit that she loved me, I could make everything better. But she wouldn't. She was Sookie, too strong willed to let herself be happy. Who was I to stand in her way any longer. Taking one last glace at her, I left.

1 year & 6 months ago

Sookie left had been in New York for 6 months. I knew exactly where she was. I refused to go to her, I refused to further flaunt her power over me. Her witch friend was kind enough to share bits of information with Pam. Of course, Pam being the ever obedient child, shared information with me.

I knew she had dated a few men, but they never lasted. Still, my rage was barely controllable. I loved her and she should be mine. But until she figured out she loved me, there was nothing I could do.

One night I recieved a call directly from the witch, informing me that Sookie was coming home. I had been in a foul mood for weeks. Finally at my breaking point, I couldn't manage to care. I had filled my nights with any random fangbanger that looked my way. I know the witch told Sookie I had came to the door every damn night for 5 months. Finally I gave up my self-imposed celibacy and started screwing and biting anything in a skirt. I tried to rid my mind of that damn woman.

I knew she was back the night she returned. I could feel her through the bond. I would be damned if I let her ruin my good time. I took the first fangbanger that approached me outside. She was no where near as beautiful as Sookie, but she'd do for a feed and fuck. I roughly grabbed her thighs and wrapped them around my waist. I pushed her back against the wall by the dumpster and slammed my lips to hers. I would forget Sookie. I had to.

What I hadn't planned on was Sookie showing up at the bar. Of all the things I thought she'd do, that wasn't one of them. I didn't realize she was watching me seduce the whore until I heard the gravel beneath her feat as she ran away.

"Sookie." I dropped the girl and called out for her. So much for my damn self-control.

"Sookie!" I screamed it again but she was already in her car. She tried to start the piece of shit, only to have the engine die on her. Leaving her there was not an option. I made my way to her car and opened the door.

"I will take you home." Was all I could say to her. I had to fight myself not to grab her and hold her. I just wanted her pressed against me. Instead I moved out of her way as she stepped from the car. I looked back at the woman. Pam was standing in the shadows behind her. I nodded to my child, to make sure she glamoured the woman I had planned on biting. I didn't want her remembering what almost happened. Sookie would be mine now, I didn't need any complications. Whether Sookie cared to admit it or not, she would be mine. I was tired of chasing her around.

I didn't say a word to her on the way back to her home. I was too lost in thought to bother exchanging small talk with her. When we pulled up, she climbed out of my car before I could get her door for her. I stood outside of my car and watched her walk into her house.

She stopped and turned to look at me. Even from my distance I could see the tears in her eyes.

"I came to tell you that I love you. I lied 6 months ago. I do love you." I felt the pain of what happened before pierce my heart. Rage filled me. Here I was ready to take her back into my life. After she had went out of her way to hurt me.

"But I don't love you anymore." I flat out lied. I didn't mean one damn word of it. Of course I loved her. An idiot could see that. But I would not let my pride suffer. Without another word I got behind the wheel of my car and drove off, leaving Sookie Stackhouse behind.

My phone rang off the hook for weeks. She called every night, several times a night. I never picked up. I would not give in to her. I had shown enough weakness on account of that woman, I wouldn't show any more.

One night Pam informed me that Sookie was moving back to New York. She had packed all of her belongings and had planned on leaving that night. The thought of her leaving for good hurt more than I could explain. I should have been happy to be rid of her and that damned bond. Instead I felt a dull aching pain in my chest. I finally gave in. I knew I'd have to see her and give her one last chance to make things right.

I pulled up to her house. She was in her car, crying against the steering wheel. I stepped in front of her car, ignoring the glare of her headlights. I watched in pain as her shoulders heaved up and down. Her sobs hurt me in a way I didn't think was possible.

Finally she looked up. When she saw me she shut off the car and stepped out of it. She looked at me like she was expecting some big speech.

"I lied." It was all I could manage to say to her. I refused to rush over to her and comfort her. She need to take some initiative. I refused to chase her again. I stared at her as she stood frozen in place. My resolve crumbled. I walked to her and took her by the shoulders.

"Sookie, I do love you. I lied. I didn't like the way I felt when you told me you didn't love me."

"But I do, I do love you." Once she said the words, the ache in my chest went away. I had to hold her.

"I know." I whispered it to her as I pulled her against me and held her tight. Her head pressed against my chest and her arms wrapped around my waist. It felt right.

"I love you so much." Her voice came out just a whisper.

"I love you too." My voice was as soft as hers.

1 year 2 months ago

"I now pronounce you husband and wife." I smiled at Sookie. Before the preacher could tell us that I could kiss the bride, she had her arms around me. She was so eager that everyone laughed. She didn't even bother to blush. She was happy....I was happy.

During our reception Niall approached us. His fairy scent was well masked. I don't know how he would have survived if it wasn't. He placed on hand on Sookie and one on me. He whispered to us in a language that had long been forgotten.

"My child. I have given you a gift." He leaned forward and gave Sookie a kiss on the forehead. I turned to look at her. She shrugged, it was anyones guess what the gift was.

The reception dragged on forever. Finally I pratically pulled Sookie to the limo. I was anxious to start our honeymoon.

Little did I know I wouldn't just start our honeymoon, I would start our family.

5 months ago

"You have to push Sookie." Tears poured down her face. She had tried her best to take it like a warrior. But she was in pain and I was worried. Child birth was a scary thing. I would rather do battle with 100 of the oldest vampires before I witnessed this again. Dr. Ludwig was position between Sookies legs, forcing her to push. Sookie grabbed my hand so hard I was damn sure she had broken it. After giving one final push I could hear a weak little cry. I leaned down to look between Sookie's. Dr. Ludwig was holding my heart in her hands. A beautiful little girl. Lilly, was what we had decided to name her.

Ludwig handed me a small pink bundle. I sat next to Sookie on the bed. Our little princess was hungry. I tried to hand her to Sookie so she could feed.

"She needs to be fed."

Present

My thoughts drifted back to the little angel in my arms. Sookie was staring off in space. She looked as lost in her thoughts as I was.

"Sookie." I nudged her a bit. No response.

"Sookie." I wiggled my elbow against her side a bit until she snapped out of her thoughts.

"I'm sorry, I was just thinking." She reached over and took Lilly from my arms. She held her close and slipped her breast free from her shirt. It took her a second to position the baby before she started suckling on her own. But once she did, Sookie was able to relax as she fed.

"About what?" I wanted to know what she was thinking about. I wondered if it was the same thing I was thinking.

"What brought us here. Everything that happened."

"It was a long road." I smiled at the idea that we had been thinking the same thing at the same time.

"Yes it was." She yawned and closed her eyes for a second.

"Let's go inside and get to bed. It's almost dawn anyway." I helped her stand and take Lilly to the nursery. While she made sure the baby was asleep I headed to our bedroom. I stretched out on the bed and waited for her to come to me.

She appeared in the doorway. I was hoping to get a little sex. But from the look on her face I could tell that wasn't happening. She didn't even bother taking off her clothes as she climbed in bed. I grinned and pulled her close to me.

"I love you Sookie." I whispered it into her ear, hoping to turn her on.

"I love you too Eric." She whispered it back and fell asleep on me.